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Adamballs

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[21 Jan 2005|12:02am]
i finally got around to typing up a resume. i got a job, but it was selling vacuums, so i was all "nah" and didn't go. i need to find something good, and damn soon.

i want to get my own laptop soon, so i can start writting.

if anyone wants to hang out, call me.
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[12 Jan 2005|09:03pm]
i just bid on a laptop on ebay. i don't know if it was a good idea or not, but it nobody outbids me, i'll have a computer soon...unless it's a scam, inwhich case, you'll be comparing me to frank castle. but i doubt many of you know who that is...so fuck it. i want a fucking computet of my own, and a job. i'll hopefully find something good at that job fair logan tolod me about, thank you logan. anyway, i'm cooler than most of you are. only...not. fuckiung hell i can;t stop typing and i need to stop doing drugs...and i'm addicted to doing the whole ... thing...that sucks...i'm done now.
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[11 Jan 2005|09:52pm]
it's time for me to start looking for a job. i need one bad. i have enough money to pay my bills for a while, but i need to get my own computer. if i get a job really soon, i can get one really soon, like within a month or so. i'm going to talk to my grandpa this week though, and perhaps i can get him to give me some cash. i doubt it though.
2 bullets|shoot me in the face
[06 Jan 2005|10:31pm]
i don't have a job right now, so if anyone wants to hang out, call me.

i don't want to update anymore.
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[30 Dec 2004|09:38am]
today = las vegas. las vegas = wes. wes = fucking idiot. but it will be awesome for sure.

ohyeah, after 2:30, i don't have a job. suckers.

i suck
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[25 Dec 2004|01:25pm]
merry fucking x-mas. while i'm here at work.
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doo doo diareah [18 Dec 2004|01:55pm]
[ mood | horny ]

it's hotter than shit up in here. i haven't updated in over a week. good. i barely talk to anyone but michele anymore. it's the holidays, let's get together and do something people.

i'm going to vegas for new years eve. that should be cool.

shoot me in the face
[10 Dec 2004|09:06am]
work sucks, too tired to care though. tonight should be cool.
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[08 Dec 2004|09:43am]
only a few more days until not so silent night. it's going to be awesome. i have to work the next morning at 8 though, which sucks ass, but after that i have 2 days off.
shoot me in the face
[07 Dec 2004|09:33am]
i think that i might be getting sick, which sucks ass. i need to sleep more ,even though i'm sleeping a lot at night. i think i need to just start watching futurama at 8, then going to bed. but i've been playing viewtiful joe and GTA san andreas a bunch.

in a few weeks, i'm driving to the desert, and that will be good times i hope.
1 bullet|shoot me in the face
[03 Dec 2004|07:28pm]
i hate the past. i hate thinking about it and remembering the things that used to make me happy. i hate remembering the good things more than i hate remembering the bad. remembering the bad just reminds me how much better things are now. but remembering the good sometimes makes me wish things were still like that. don't get me wrong, i'm totally happy with my life right now, short of my job, but i sometimes just want to go back to the way certain things were. but, whatever, fuck it.

things are pretty good right now, i'm moving into michele's slowly but surely. i got my TV there, which is the biggest thing i own. i've just got a ton of little stuff at my mom's house still. i'll get it out over the next few days.

i'm starting my christmas shopping.
shoot me in the face
[02 Dec 2004|09:39am]
Have you ever...
[ ]pissed yourself (years 0-5 of your life don't count)
[ ]hit your parent(s)
[ ]been drunk (or tipsy)
[x]smoked pot.
[ ]done shrooms
[ ]done acid
[ ]done cocaine
[x]kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[ ]rode in a taxi.
[x]been dumped.
[x]shoplifted.
[x]been fired.
[x]had a job.
[ ]been in a fist fight.
[x]snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ]been arrested.
[ ]stole something from your job.
[ ]celebrated new years in times square.
[ ]went on a blind date.
[x]smoked a cigarette.
[ ]gone on an airplane by yourself.
[x]broken a bone.
[ ]had sex in a car.
[x]White lied to a friend.
[ ]had a crush on a teacher.
[ ]celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ]been to europe.
[x]made out in a movie.
[x]taken caffiene pills.
[x]been to disney land.
[x]had a crush on someone you hardly knew.
[x]been to california.
[ ]been skinny dipping.
[x]regretted something.
[ ]peed on someones lawn.
[x]skipped school.
[x]thrown up from drinking. (too much sunny delight, not alcohol)
[ ]lost your sibling.
[ ]been butt nekked bangin on the bathroom floor.
[x]kissed a member of the same sex.
[ ]had sex with a boy.
[x]had sex with a girl.
[x]been in a car accident.
[ ]partied for days and days straight.
[x]have had a one night stand (two x's if you dont remember the persons name)
[x]had a family member die.
[x]played 'clue'.
[x]had a sleepover party.
[x]went ice skating.
[x]been cheated on
[x]had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ]had a threesome.
[ ]had a sweet sixteen
[x]had a car.
[x]drove.
Do you...
[ ] have a bf.
[x] have a gf.
[x] have a crush.
[x] have a dog. (3 of 'em now i guess)
[x] have a cat.
[ ]have your own room.
[x]listen to SLAYER!
[ ]paint your nails
[ ]play a sport.
[ ]play more than one sport.
[x]watch sports on tv. (basketball if i catch it on)
[x]have a fav. group/singer/artist.
[x]have more than 1 best friend.
[ ]get good grades.
[x]play an instrument.
[ ]have slippers.
[x]wear boxers.
[ ]wear black eyeliner.
[x]like the color blue.
[ ]like the color yellow.
[ ]cyber.
[x]like to read.
[x]like to write.
[x]have long hair.
[ ]have short hair.
[x]have a cell phone.
[ ]have a laptop.
[ ]have a pager.
Are you...
[x]ugly.
[ ]pretty
[x]ok.
[x]bored.
[x]happy.
[x]kinda.
[x]white.
[ ]black.
[ ]puerto rican.
[ ]asian.
[ ]short.
[x]tall.
[ ]grounded.
[ ]sick.
[x]lazy.
[ ]single
[x]taken.
[ ]looking.
[x]not looking.
[ ]talking to someone
[ ]IMing someone.
[ ]scared to die.(more than you know)
[x]sleepy.
[ ]annoyed.
[ ]on the phone.
[x]in your room.
[ ]drinking something.
[ ]eating something.
[ ]in your pjs.
[x]ticklish. (like fucking crazy)
[x]listening to music.
[ ]homophobic.
[ ]racist.
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[01 Dec 2004|09:21am]

 

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1 bullet|shoot me in the face
[01 Dec 2004|09:09am]
[ mood | tired ]

i'm quitting in january now. my boss calmed me down and we worked out that i'll stay through christmas, then take new years off, then come back and start to train my replacement, and by mid january i'll be done. so, i've got some time to find a job. i'll also be working on christmas, which sucks, but it's double time, and i get my name entered into a drawing with 7 other people to win a nintendo DS. i hella want to win too.

i've started moving stuff into michele's house. we changed her room around so that we can fit everything in there, and i think that we'll get it all in there fine. the commute to work is going to suck, but, ohwell. soon i'll get a job in santa rosa, hopefully.

i get paid today and i have to start my christmas shopping.

2 bullets|shoot me in the face
[29 Nov 2004|10:52pm]
i'm quitting my job tomorrow. i'm sick of all the bull shit there. i'm looking for a part time job or two. i don't care if i'm not making that much money. i'm moving out of my moms house and i'm going to be living with michele at her house.

if anyone knows of any places that are hiring let me know.
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i don't hate gay people [27 Nov 2004|07:22am]
yesterday i was fortunate enough to have dinner and a movie paid for, however, there was a fair amount of misfortune in there as well, for that movie, was Alexander. the story of a "secretly" gay ancient king/general/psycho. i'd heard rumor of a scene featuring colin "phonebooth" farrell's nut sack, so i was dreading veiwing this film. i closed my eyes any time there was even a chance of man nuggets, and i got up to take the longest piss ever about two hours into the movie (which by my calculations was the half way point, this movie was fucking long) anyway, either my closed eyes or my small bladder saved me from witnessing balls. however nothing could save me from the rest of the crap this movie spewed forth.

i was thinking of doing a play by play review of the movie, but it was too fucking long, so fuck it. the movie was awful. the acting was terrible.there was an all male gang rape scene. someone forgot the pack the steady cam every time there was a battle scene. a lot of the blood spurts in battle were obviously CGI. there was no Star wars trailer at the begining. it had colin farrel. just, so many thing in this movie were bad. it held my attention somehow, but it was terrible. i liked two parts of the movie, there was a scene with a guy using a human head like a club, and there was a scene with monkeys. other than that...bad.

i'm going to see the incredibles tonight, i've heard nothing but good things about it. plus starwars trailer.

Michele bought me an awesome new sweatshirt, i need to start my christmas shopping, what do you all want?
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i stole this from logan [26 Nov 2004|01:16pm]
elsmurfoz

LAST PERSON WHO

Slept in your bed: me all alone

Saw you cry: i don't know

You shared a drink with: myself

You went to the movies with: michele

You went to the mall with: michele

Yelled at you: i don't know


EVER BEEN TO

California:a few times

Hawaii: sadly no

Mexico: once

China: no

Canada: nope



HAVE YOU EVER

Danced naked: probably

Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: no

Wished you were the opposite sex: no

Had an imaginary friend: not that i can remember


Do you have a crush on someone: yeah

What book are you reading now: lullaby and stiff


WHATS YOUR

Worst feeling in the world: not having love

Future son's name: noever gonna have kids

Future daughter's name: no kids

Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: pillows

What's under your bed: old comics i think.

Favorite sport to watch: basketball

Siblings: step or half, no full

Location: windsor, ca, usa, the world

College plans: film?

Do you drink: vanilla coke?

Who is your best friend: wes

What are you most scared of: dieing a loser

Where do you want to get married: i never thought about it

Who do you really hate: people

Been in Love: Yes

Do you drive: Yes

Do you have a job: Yes

Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: yes

Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yeah, a bunch of times

Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: not really

Want someone you don't have right now: no

Are you lonely right now: no

Do you want to get married: maybe, eventually

Do you want kids: no, i want a vaesectomy

If you were stranded on a deserted island who would you like to be stuck with and why: wes, cause we have fun even at the dmv or michele, 'cause she's fun to be around



FAVORITE

Room in house: the bathroom

Type(s) of music: I listen to everything.

Band/Group(s): Too many to name.

Color: green or black

Perfume or cologne: i don't know

Flower: i have no fucking clue


IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU

Cried: no

Bought something: coffee and slurpees

Met someone: no

Missed someone: yeah

Hugged someone: Yeah.

Kissed someone: yes

Became shy around someone: no
1 bullet|shoot me in the face
[25 Nov 2004|12:12pm]
fucking idiot people buying shit on thanksgiving, i want to kill them.

chris "everyhting makes me cry" alexander just came in, and mother fucker got big. i could probably still kick his ass though.
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my farts make the bed rumble [23 Nov 2004|11:30am]
[ mood | discontent ]

i just want to feel like i make a difference in this world. i can't stand the fact that even on my days off i get calls from work. they're reasonable questions, i don't blame my crew, but, they could call the other store, or leave a note. plus, i don't really have any effect on peoples lives. yeah, if i don't reorder a game quick enough they might not get it right when they want it, too fucking bad. i just want to do somethign that will impact someones lives, not just for a moment, but forever.


maybe i should start slangin' rock again...

3 bullets|shoot me in the face
[20 Nov 2004|09:55am]
stupid elecricity being turned back on, fuckers...

not a lot has being going on. haning with michele, watching a lot of TV and movies. playing dr. mario. trying to beat xmen legends, but it's hard! i was on the last boss, i got him down to like 1/4 health, then he suddenly raped me. all 4 of my characters got raped! i was pissed, but i'm going to try again soon. i've also decided a few more tattoos i want to get done eventually. one is the cover of the new aqua teens DVD set. the picture with the chainsaws. that's so badass.

tomorrow i'm driving to sacramento again to chill with matt, i'll be back sometime on monday. the drive sucks, but i haven't hung out with matt in a while, so it'll be fun.
2 bullets|shoot me in the face
[18 Nov 2004|10:35am]
i want a nintendo DS. i think you should all join forces, and get me one. or you know...i can just get one myself.

i love getting screener DVDs from work.
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[16 Nov 2004|10:19am]
i want that 3 legged cat dammit.

i feel kind of sick right now. i need some food, that will make me feel better.3

i bought some new games, a few movies, and i got to try out a DS. i want one, but i'll probably wait a little while before i get one, until there are some more good games for it. the PSP i'll snag up right away though, that thing's going to be awesome.

i have a big pink skull and cross bone on my back, and a dead kitty too...the ice cream is gone, but i couldn't finish that damned cake...close though.

new aqua teens and home movies today!
3 bullets|shoot me in the face
i need coffee [13 Nov 2004|10:48am]
there are so many games out right now that i want to buy, but i know that i shouldn't buy any until i beat a few of the ones i have now, i'm close to beating xmen legends, so i think that i'll do that tomorrow, hopefully.

wanted games list is as follows; bloodrayne 2 (xbox), lord of the rings: the third age (ngc), grand theft auto: san andreas (ps2), second sight (xbox), forgotem reals: demon stone (xbox), conflict vietnam (xbox), spongbob squarepants: the movie (xbox), ultra bust-a-movie (xbox).

plus a bunch of others. i also want some food, chicken wings. Michele and i are going to get cup cakes tonight i think. or doughnuts maybe.
2 bullets|shoot me in the face
[12 Nov 2004|11:29am]
FIRSTS:
1. First best friend: jed
2. First love: haley
3. First real kiss: haley
4. First screen name: vlad95448
5. First pet: oleo the cat
6. First car: 1998 plymoth breeze

LASTS:
1. Last cigarette: a while ago, i was hanging out with monica
2. Last kiss: this morning
3. Last good cry: a while back
4. Last beverage drank: diet pepsi
5. Last food consumed: pancakes
6. Last crush: michele
7. Last phone call: michele

RELATIONSHIPS:
1. Who are your best friends: Wes, lauren, Marci, matt, rich, chris, michele
2. Do you have a girlfriend: yes

FASHION STUFF:
1. Where are your favorite places to shop: depends what i'm shoping for
2. Favorite item of clothing: t-shirts

SPECIFICS:
1. Do you do drugs: nope
2. What kind of shampoo do you use: head and shoulders
3. What are you most scared of: being a loser forever

FAVORITES:
1. Colors: green
2. Foods: Pizza
3. Subject in school: Checking out girls
4. Animals: cat
5. Sports: basketball
6. Movie: too many to choose from

HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Given anyone a bath: showers yes, bath no
2. Smoked: smoked what?
3. Made yourself throw-up: not to loose weight or anything, it was to grose someone out
4. Skinny dipped: nope
5. Been in love: yeah

CURRENT:
1. Clothes: halo 2 long sleeve shirt, jeans, year old reebok
2. Music: the river
3. Make-up: fuck off
4. IMs: heather, but she hates me, and is ignoring me

LAST PERSON:
2. Hugged: michelle
3. Imed: heather
4. Last person who slept at your house: michele
5. Last persons house you slept at: michele's

RANDOM:
1. In the morning I am: waking up
2. Love is: fun, but can hurt
3. I dream about: having money
8 bullets|shoot me in the face
real men drink diet pepsi [12 Nov 2004|10:16am]
last nights CSI was fairly anti-climactic. i love that show, but sometimes it just lacks a cool twist.

we went to kohl's lastnight, it was pretty cool, they have the miracle blade 3 set, and i think when i get paid again, i'm going to go buy it. i've wanted it for so long!

plus, we might get to live rent free in a house! that would be awesome. there would be tons of dogs, which means no kitty, but a ton of dogs are as good as one cat i guess.
shoot me in the face
[11 Nov 2004|10:34am]
[ mood | blah ]

this rain washes away my harsh exterior as though it were a candy coating in the mouth of a diabetic.

i love the rain though. seriously, i just hate driving at night in the rain.

halo 2 is awesome.

i think we found a place to live, i just hope that our applications are accepted. if not, we might need a co-signer, which will be easy to find i'm sure. *sigh* i hate my job. we're going to need a bigger TV, and a stereo, and a kitty.

tonight will be fun.

4 bullets|shoot me in the face
[09 Nov 2004|10:13am]
who wants to play some co-op halo 2?
3 bullets|shoot me in the face
[08 Nov 2004|09:03pm]
[ mood | content ]

i think i might have found a place to live for now. it's more expenise that i would like, but they're nicer than most places for the price, so...i'll live there i guess. hopefully they have one available when we get the money together. she's still gotta see it though, and we need to ask about pets.

i want to go to the desert, but i can't just leave her. but i think that by summer, i might be able to talk her into it.

Halo 2 is in just a few more hours. i'm not going to sleep at all tonight, and hopefully tomorrow night, i wont have to sleep alone.

2 bullets|shoot me in the face
[06 Nov 2004|10:47am]
Fill it out Please!!!!
What Would U Do....
-If I Cheated On You:
-If I Was In the Hospital:
-If I Dated Ur Mom:
-If I Was ur Daddy:
-If I Was Gay:
-If I had lots of money:
-If I Was a Superstar:
-If I Turn disfigured frm a accident:
-If I Cried:
-If I Died:
-If I Stole:
-If I Got Dumped:
-If I Got In a Fight and u were there:
-If I liked u:
-If I Loved u:
-If I got shot:
-If I Lied to You
-If I kissed You:
-If I Ran Away frm Home:
-If I did something that u wouldnt forgive me for:
-If I was a striper:
-If I was a Pornstar:

Wat do You think about my....
-Eyes:
-Smile:
-Hair:
-Looks:
-Ass:
-Cloths:
-Personality:
-Family:
-Humor:
-Voice:
-Friends:
-Music:


Would You....
-Be My Friend:
-Tell Me The Truth Juss To Make Me Happy:
-Tell Me The Truth No Matter Wat:
-Spread Rumors about Me:
-Keep A Secret I told You:
-Hold My Hand:
-Keep in Touch:
-Take a Bullet For Me:
-Have Sex Wit Me:
-Kiss Me:
-Date Me:
-Use Me:
-Rape Me:
-Beat Me Up:
-Love Me:
4 bullets|shoot me in the face
[05 Nov 2004|10:07am]
[ mood | tired like "woah" ]

i want to be a rap producer. i want platinum chains and a gold tooth, or teeth.

am i going to live in the desert? maybe. if i do, am i going to be on CSI? for sure.

i'm very tired. i didn't mean to stay out so late, but it was worth it.

i'm very very very happy about things, and very very sad about others.

2 bullets|shoot me in the face
my weekend. [02 Nov 2004|10:02am]
[ mood | blah ]

this weekend wasn't terribly eventful. other than the return of wes. it was only for a few days, but things seem right again.

friday was the day of the corn maze, which was fun, but it took forevr and got frustrating. plus it was freezing ass cold, and michele had to pee. but we got through it, and went to denny's, which was a bad idea. but we decided that a new bumper sticker should say "pregnant people shouldn't eat denny's". we all thought abotu going to see Saw after that, but michele was tired, so wes and i went back to my house and i played some THUG 2 and he went to sleep.

saturday, i woke up, played a bit more THUG 2. then wes and i went to costco and got hot dogs and the most oily pizza ever. then we wandered through best buy, and got asked if we needed help like fifty bazillion times, and finally we left. we went and saw michele at work, and she gave us some doughnuts, and she was eatting mcdonalds, again. then we went to the mall and wandered around for a while, then went back to best buy, where we were bugged to shit again, but we bought dawn of the dead, so we left and called michele, and we all went to see saw, which was pretty creepy, but it was downright funny for a long time at the end. then we went to my house and watched dawn of the dead, which was way better than saw. michele pretty muich crashed right after the movie, so we just went to sleep.

sunday(halloween). we woke up, lazed in my room for a bit, then went to mcdonalds. wes and i dropped michele off and tried to find something to do. best buy wandering again. some fucker actually asked me if needed help twice in a row.

asshole: "need help?"
me: "no"
asshole: "need help?"
me: "fuck off"

then we left and went to the mall. we saw monica and got some candy from her. then we came to the game cage, and bought outlaw golf 2, and went to my house to play for a while. then we decided to leave, and try to find something to do. we drove around healdsburg for a while, and got slurpee's. we called gina, but she didn't answer, so we went to her house. she wasn't there, but her mom and haley's mom were, and they told us there was a party at haley's house, and gina's mom called there and told gina we were looking for her, so gina called us and told us to come over, so we said hi to gina, but she was leaving. so wes and i headed south, but gina called us a few minutes later and told us that haley wanted us to go to the party, after a few minutes of debate, we decided to go. LAME. it was full of people i either didn't know, or didn't like. wes and i sat at the kitchen table playing cards for a while, then we left. haley was trying to be nice, but it came across as forced.

monday was a sad day. wes' last day here. we went to costo and i bought the OC season one, and CSI season 4, and America (the book). then we went into best buy and i bought underworld special edition, and made, and they live, which i've never seen, but it was 10 bucks, and i've seen the fight from it. then we went and got burritos, and ate them at the skate park. gina came by and we talked for a few minutes, then we all parted ways, and i drove wes to see his whore of a mother. i sat in the car and opened DVDs while he was talking to her. then we came back to my house, and he left. sad. he forgot his copy of HALO too. after he left, i spent the better part of the day cleaning my room. it looks nicer. i should have done it before he came, but, fuck him. then i got pizza, and watched some more TV, and texted with Michele. and went to bed.

1 bullet|shoot me in the face
[29 Oct 2004|12:33pm]
[ mood | amused ]

corn maze tonight? yes. saw? perhaps. wes? sure. chaos? you'd better fucking believe it.

i'm hungry as shit right now, but i'm off work in 5 and a half hours or so, then the fun begins. 3 days off. on monday i might start looking at appartments, or i might just be lazy and watch the OC season one. or maybe CSI. who the fuck knows? not me. what should i do on halloween?

2 bullets|shoot me in the face
[28 Oct 2004|10:00am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

i think, that for not having carved pumpkins in a few years, and for using kitchen knives...my pumpkin still pretty much sucked. cheaper by the dozen was okay, but i hate ashton kutcher! he's ugly, and he can't act, unless he's acting like an idiot.

it's getting colder at night, which has it's ups and downs.

i want my pumpkin pie now dammit!

photo shoot tonight, too bad i'm ugly.

tomorrow...the world will be "right" again.

3 bullets|shoot me in the face
[26 Oct 2004|01:26pm]
the grudge was pretty damned scary, cheesy and shit, but creepy none the less. but wes was right for the most part, it was the ring meets gothika.

there's an awesome sale at toys r us, but i have no money.

time to start looking for a new home! hopefully, this will work well.
6 bullets|shoot me in the face
[26 Oct 2004|10:58am]
at the crest of the hill, the glow of the city's lights become defined. coming up and over, the lights begind to apear as they are. tiny rows, showing the boulivards and drives, avenues and lanes, streets and courts. we're close, but in my sleep deprived state, i know it's going to be a long trip. i hear banging from the trunk. as long as this trip has been for me, i know it must have been longer for her. i can't even remember how this started. tracing back the days, weeks, months. or were they years? they must have been years.

highschool was a confusing time for me. like most people i suppose. divorced parents, alcoholism, pedophelia, acne, drug addiction, farm animals. i was surrounded by deamons that few, if any, should ever have to face. starting highscool, i was the new kid in town. my parents divorced when i was 8. at the time, they told me they had simply fallen out of love. i know now, this is an impossible thing to do. i eventually found out, that my father had been having an affair with my day care provider, who was married with kids herself. i always wondered why they moved away at the same time. until i was 12, i was alone with my mother most of the time. she would date, but they never stayed long. my mother had an eye for drunks, though she never realized it herself. when i was 12, she remarried. i had a step brother. he was younger than me. 5 whole months, but at that age, it seemed signifigant, that i was someone's older brother. he would often start fights at school, that i would have to finish. by no means, am i a fighter, but he was even less of one. at home, he rarely spoke, even to his father. on a sunday in fall, after a bike ride with some friends, i came home to find an array of police cars and neighbors around my house. my little brother had found his fathers SIG GSR 1911, semi-automatic pistol, and turned it first on my mother, then his father, and finally, on himself. 3 days later i was on a train, heading to my fathers house.

upon arrival, i had a bed, a lamp, and an alarm clock. the only words he said to me, after over 4 years of absense, were "get some sleep, we'll get you some toys in the morning". i didn't get any sleep that night. the different smells, sounds, and lights, made me uncomfortable. all i could do was imagine how the scene must have gone down. a small boy, with a rather large pistol, angry and bitter for whatever reason. aiming, intending to take a life. this was something i couldn't fathom.

at the bottom of the hill, i came to the first stop sign. how many more until i get there?
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[23 Oct 2004|11:32am]
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[23 Oct 2004|10:14am]
the lights on the other side of the hill were now noticeable. i kept laughing. suddenly, despite the heat, i got a chill. that's when the laughing stopped. in my sleep deprived state, elation turned to paranoia. i remembered my payload. they wouldn't know the car, but what if someone noticed my face? though it had been a few years, i had changed little short of a few worry lines. i swerve to the side of the road and stop. i begin searching the back seat for a hat. something to hide my face. all i find is a baseball cap with a logo from a lumber company. it doesn't exactly go with my ensemble, but it will have to do for the time being. i pull it down low, and get out to the car. a walk to the trunk. in my sleep deprived state, i take a deep breath and turn the key. the trunk clanks open, and i peer into the darkness.

"hey"

that's when the eyes open. stark blue against the pale skin. the hair which is usually perfect is now a tattered mess. tears streaked down her face. the black duct tape over her mouth and around her head

"it wont be long now. this will all be over soon" in my sleep deprived state, i barely recognize my own voice. it's been so long since i've said anything. "you understand the way this works right?" she nods her head. "good. i promise that if you hold up your end of the bargain, i'll hold up mine". the eyes close, and she nods again. i close the trunk and get back in the car. in my sleep deprived state, i start the car back up, and pull back onto the road, drawing closer and closer to the end.
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